what is stress with a capital S?

“not enough vitamins.”

yan na yata ang motto ko ngayon. i’ve felt tired all week long. my officemates feel it to and we attribute it to all the new things that started this monday.

nagkaroon ng ‘rigodon’ when we started hiring people, moved some around, and had visitors come in last monday. and i have a new person to work with. iniisip namin nga ngayon na this is just the adjustment period… been having conversations in my head and trying to think of things to do next. nakakapagod pala pag naka-“on” lagi ang lahat ng nasa utak mo.

and then there’s the renovation for the house. i’m sort of stressed kasi inabutan na ng tag-ulan. hindi naman makapagpa-trabaho pero kailangan na kailangan nang magpa-ayos ng bahay. and even thinking about how to move things is just putting a lot of strain in the far corners of my brain.

kaya gaya kahapon, napa-stress-eating-galore kami. ordered McDo. well, di naman talaga stress-eating. basta, naghanap lang ng medyo comfort food. convenience of food delivery seemed to be the answer. di na nga din namin naisip kung ano talaga gusto naming kainin. “kahit ano, basta delivery.”

ano ba psychology ng ganoon? reward for hard work? having control over someone/something? Schadenfreude? (“look at me! i’m rich and i can afford to have food delivered, not like you manong delivery guy na malamang ay minimum wage.”) UGH! i feel terrible again.

feels like nothing right is happening.

it’s not true though. but it feels really convincing.

it’s 8 o’clock in the evening

ang masayang schedule sana ay pauwi na dapat sana ako ng ganitong oras. pero hindi eh. nandito pa ako at magtatagal pa ako sa opisina ng mga 2 o 3 oras pa.

nakakapagod ang walang ginagawa.

di yata ako maka-keep-up sa mga pangyayari. not enough vitamins ‘ika nga ng isang commercial sa TV. sign of aging? or sign of deterioration? anak ng… bata pa ako. ayoko pa ng ganito.

although, last year ko na na mapapasama ako sa ‘calendar club’. next year, graduate nako to ‘bingo club’. yes, i just turned 31. (yung mga magpapa-libre, saka na pag nakalipat na ako sa ibang trabaho na mas mataas ang sahod! or maka-sideline diyan sa QC Circle minsan. haha!) and like most days, it didn’t feel different. ganun talaga pag tumatanda yata. wala ng magandang nangyayari sa buhay. lahat ng magagandang pangyayari, naganap na noong kabataan mo… “noong panahon namin,” ang lagi mong sambit. Continue reading

what you should take home from watching the video starts at 4:17.

 

…both men were married for over 60 years. both men had big families. these men gave — to all those around them. and that was the biggest difference with what i was doing and what they did. i was concerned with having something. they were concerned with giving something…

Isla Vista needs a lot of improvement

Since i don’t want to make another write-up, i thought of just copying my review on TripAdvisor (again). XD I posted my pictures there too. :D

isla vista

We traveled as a big group: 4 families. we booked the Courtyard which houses 4 rooms (each with T&B) plus a common living/dining area and kitchen. Sound great right? Well, not exactly.

Courtyard looks and feels dated. The kitchen tiles confirms it. There isn’t even a proper metal sink. Just a tiled hole on a concrete countertop slab. The furniture are structurally sound but it’s pretty obvious that it’s just a mash-up of anything and everything available to the resort and stuck inside it. Even the TV didn’t have enough cable channels to entertain us. The cables were everywhere too! And those jallousie windows? Forget about trying to close them. It ain’t gonna work. There’s a garden on the side fronting the beach where you can grill food. The garden was left to just keep growing and it was just really untidy.

We got Room #1 and the displeasure continues. It was a pretty dimly lit room and it was not the romantic kind. Paint peeling from water-logged walls. Seems like the renovation/improvement was done hastily or on a budget. Really thin coats of yellow paint on doors. Even saw old termite tubes on the walls. The T&B were below average.

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isang alamat

kakatapos lang ng umulan nang naglakad si Frederick mula sa bayan papunta sa likod ng kanilang munting bahay. basa at medyo maputik ang mga pilapil sa pagitan ng palayan ng kanyang mga magulang. habang naglalakad ay narinig niya ang isang boses na tila nanghuhusga ng kaniyang pagka-tao.

http://www.motorcyclephilippines.com/forums/showthread.php?159209-Eagle-One-s-Mindoro-ride-Feb-6-to-8/page2

image from motorcyclephilippines.com

“Bakla… Bakla…”

lumingon siya sa pinanggagalingan ng tinig subalit wala itong nakitang tao. inisip niyang napag-kakatuwaan siya ng kaniyang batang kapatid na si Eugenio at ang mga kalaro nito. marahil ay nagtatago ang mga ito sa likod ng pahingahang gawa ng kanilang tatay.

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Bohol Day 2: Bohol Bee Farm

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The problem with posting late is you forget what happened. So I missed the part when we had lunch. Or if we had lunch! Haha! but i think it was back on Panglao Island. i’m sure we went back because the last leg of our Bohol trip was the island road trip! :)

Bohol Bee Farm is one of the default destinations. we saw how they grew their vegetables and gardens to keep the bees producing honey as well as the livelihood crafts they provided. paintings or banigs, anyone? :)

and of course, we had to meet the star of the farm: Jollibee! the bees! i think it’s been a common thing now for tour guides to convince you to pose for a picture wearing/doing something you think is dangerous. they tell you “pang-Facebook!” :P but i wasn’t afraid or anything. i was pretty confident as long as i didn’t drop the hive, no bee would sting me. my worry was if i do get stung, they’d never find the spot where because i was as red as a lobster from the snorkeling earlier! LOOK!!!

before we head for home, we must not forget to grab some pasalubong, of course, as well as samples of things we won’t usually find in Manila. they have their mini-sari-sari store where a whole range of bee and non-bee products are available for you to take home. A was simply overwhelmed with everything and worried we’d break the bank. but i hit her on the head hard enough with some bread on one shelf and she was fine.

she did want her sugar fix, though. good thing another unique treat on the farm was ice cream. not just any ice cream — you had your usual buko and chocolate but also durian, ginger, and tomato! but being ordinary tourists, we had the default malunggay. :) and there was some bitter aftertaste but just a tiny wee bit after eating. you’d easily miss it.

we took home some coriander loaves that were very herb-y but went really well with some butter. i even bought pasalubong for my bestfriend but never got around to bring it to her because of our schedules so i ended up eating it just before it expired. (excuses! :P) but i did promise to make it up to her when we come back. i’d buy her a bigger jar of honey spread!