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Sonnet XVII (Pablo Neruda, 100 Love Sonnets, 1960)

I don’t love you as if you were the salt-rose, topaz
or arrow of carnations that propagate fire:
I love you as certain dark things are loved,
secretly, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that doesn’t bloom and carries
hidden within itself the light of those flowers,
and thanks to your love, darkly in my body
lives the dense fragrance that rises from the earth.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where,
I love you simply, without problems or pride:
I love you in this way because I don’t know any other way of loving

but this, in which there is no I or you,
so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand,
so intimate that when I fall asleep it is your eyes that close.

The author may have been different, but just the same as it were last April 10, 2008, I re-dedicate this poem to you. I love you and that is all I know. “I love you in this way because I don’t know any other way of loving, but this, in which there is no I or you…”

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this is the second cry baby-related post and i don’t know why.

anyway, since i listen to Chico and Delamar every morning on the radio, i get to hear their quirky, bastos, and intelligent conversations through their top 10 everyday (i recommend you subscribe to their podcast). and when they talk about entertainment news to current events (usually on News@17 segment), i get updated on what’s going around on the net and on TV, and sometimes i Google the ones i was interested in.

and just this tuesday (i think), chico mentioned about katy perry being a guest on my all-time favorite children’s TV show Sesame Street! you all know i have a huge crush on her, right? ๐Ÿ˜€ so i just had to take a peek on youtube and found it cute but a bit awkward because of katy perry’s (over)acting… but that’s just my opinion. *sad*

wanting to go back to the old (and better) Sesame Street, i tried looking for the older video clips. but what i ended up watching were different videos of the muppets on the show — them and the real-life puppeteers on a stage in Jim Henson’s memorial service. and this just raised the level of respect i had for the cast and its creator even more. their talents and hearts will never be a match for Barney. if you’d like to know what i’m talking about, watch the videos below. there are a couple of more videos but i’ll let you search for them.

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drawing inspiration and hope

ok, i’m admitting it — i’m a little cry baby deep inside. i’ve watched movies that brings my bladder to my eyes. even if they are just animated cartoons (not the “Sad Movies” song-type of situation), i still get emotional sometimes. and even more often, being emotionally overwhelmed by a song’s lyrics and message.

i’m not the really religious type or what some people say “sarado Katoliko” and still have liberal tendencies. i’m still “muddling through” everything. it’s a journey and i’m happy with it… though i must make clear that i still have my convictions. that being said, this post is about the song that brings me inspiration and hope — that another person and I will be “His again” together.

some of you may have seen it during Holy Week or Christmas way back. Here’s a sort of music video of the TV-Movie of the title track and the lyrics. ๐Ÿ™‚

Maging Akin Muli
(by Arnel Aquino, SJ)

Manlamig man sa Akin puso mong maramdamin
Lisanin man ng tuwa puso mong namamanglaw
Manginig man sa takot masindakin mong puso
Mag-ulap man sa lungkot diwa mong mapag-imbot.

Kapiling mo Akong laging naghihintay sa tanging tawag mo.
Pag-ibig Kong ito isang pananabik sa puso Ko
Sa โ€˜yong pagbabalik sa piling Kong puspos ng pagsuyo
Manahimik at makinig kaโ€™t maging Akin muli.

Di mo rin akalain tinig moโ€™y hanap Ko rin,
Ang โ€˜yong tuwa at sakit, Aking galak at pait.
Kung lingid pa sa iyo, Aking pakikiloob,
Tuklasin mong totoo: tunay mong pagkatao.

Kapiling mo Akong laging naghihintay sa tanging tawag mo.
Pag-ibig Kong ito isang pananabik sa puso Ko.
Sa โ€˜yong pagbabalik sa piling Kong puspos ng pag โ€“ suyo,
Manahimik at makinig kaโ€™t maging Akin muli.

how can i not cry with such a beautiful message? He lets us do whatever we want to do. He is there, just waiting for our “call” and is always looking forward to it. and when start crying and running back to Him, He says, “ssshhh… be still. you are Mine again.” this is something i would like to take to heart.

Breaking news in Science!

Quezon City — Scientists from the Manila Observatory, a Jesuit scientific research institution, were immensely motivated to test the hypothesis proposed by Carl Fredricksen in his well-documented feature film. Preliminary photographic documentation by the researchers at the Manila Observatory and results are shown:

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my workplace in 3D!!!

well, not exactly. ๐Ÿ˜€

i found out about Photosynth by microsoft through Jayvee who announced the contest on teksilog.com the other day. i told myself i’d try it out but it required a MSN Live or Hotmail account. (wow, i had a hotmail account AGES ago! i used a pseudonym pa nga noong highschool. doon ko naman nakilala ang Honeylet. wow, flashback!!! and yes, Honeylet ang pangalan niya. that’s not a term of endearment. LOL. ibang araw na lang ang story namen. :D)

i had the patience to sign up for an account only recently and even more recent, the chance to take photos of my workplace in nice weather. i took a total of 28 photos of the building, taking shots at different angles and going from one side to the other, coming closer a few steps for each set.after that, i fired up Photosynth after downloading and installing it, processed the photos and voila! DONE! what i enjoyed most is the Point Cloud view. i think it takes the tie-points of the photos and recreates a somewhat 3-dimensional render of the photos you took.

pretty neat huh? and a nice addition is that you can geotag your photosynth. i did that on mine so maybe you’ll know where to find me if you need me. ๐Ÿ˜› haha…

embedding doesn’t seem to work. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ you’ll just have to click here to see my photosynth. ๐Ÿ™‚

“God was not necessary”

yes, many will be up in arms saying that i’m a scientist and therefore an atheist and would absolutely agree with Stephen Hawking’s statement. but what’s the fuss all about? the statement isn’t exactly new. the whole quote is as follows:

What I have done is to show that it is possible for the way the universe began to be determined by the laws of science. In that case, it would not be necessary to appeal to God to decide how the universe began. This doesn’t prove that there is no God, only that God is not necessary. –Der Spiegel (17 October 1988)

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is airsoft for me?

caused by some of recent events, a couple of which are national issues and some more intimate ones, i’ve become interested, once again, in gun replicas. you know, those plastic BB guns, more popularly known (then) as pellet guns but are now known as Airsoft guns and rifles.

my first airsoft gun was a KSC Smith & Wesson (i forgot what type of pistol. probably the Model 39. it has the same brown wood textured grip) way back in the 90s. yes i was probably underage for those kinds of toys but i had my father with me when i bought that in a store in San Fernando. i had a lot of fun holding it, feeling its heavy weight as if it were the real thing and pretty much treated it like an actual pistol. though i couldn’t have much fun with it because you have to cock it after every shot, not like the new ones that you put compressed air into them or those that have battery-powered motors inside that let you shoot continuously.

if memory serves me right, my old pistol cost me Php 600.00. and you still add the cost of BB pellets that you use for shooting. i didn’t bother buying target boards/paper because i was just too young to think about competition and scores. what my playmates and i would do was usually get an empty can of sardines or milk and have some target practice! and if we do attempt playing with scores with hand-drawn target boards, we’d do it indoors! you ask why? we need curtains! ๐Ÿ˜€

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