so Christmas-y!


my dad was preparing the ingredients for supper, having chopsuey in mind. peeking into the kitchen, i saw everything on the countertop and i just had to take pictures! ๐Ÿ™‚

as you can see, everything’s just green and plain. we almost forgot the carrots! lol…

but what i found really nice was the celery and bell pepper combination on the plate. it just looked so Christmas-y!!! ๐Ÿ™‚ hay… i wonder how this year’s Christmas will be… masyado bang forward thinking? hahaha… wala lang. it just had that feel when i saw it. kaya ayan…

Pasko na ba? ๐Ÿ˜€ hahaha…

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akalain mo yun? naka-isang taon na pala ako sa wordpress, di ko man lang namalayan? ๐Ÿ˜€

at ang petsa ng una kong post? Aug 16, 2008. tsk, muntik na mataon sa… nuninuninu… ๐Ÿ˜€ hahaha… at least malapit lang. pero i’m really bad with dates, i mean remembering dates. that’s why napakalaking kawalan nung nasira ang aking selepono. puno yun ng memories at notes at kung anik-anik sa kalendaryo. makukuha ko pa kaya yung mga yun? i’m sure they reside in some of the memory modules and chips ng phone pero pano kukunin? di naman ako ECE/EE para makabutingting ng mga ganun. may konting alam lang sa electronics pero pag kumplikado na, ay, suko nako diyan…

pero kung babalikan nga yung mga dati kong post, mukhang isa rin akong lost soul nung nakaraang taon. which makes me think, am i just relapsing? is this a cycle? nireregla lang ba ako? ahay!!!

spoil-day friday ko na naman. and i guess He decided for me kanina dahil may pumara sa tapat ng Seattle’s Best Coffee. and i couldn’t believe gano ako ka-perky ulit! ๐Ÿ˜€ masaya ako, ewan ko ba. dahil ba sa pagbabalik ng music sa buhay ko? i’ve let it sit in the shelf for the longest time dahil nasira yung mp3/mp4 player ko. di naman ako makabili ng iPod dahil mahal at maraming gastusin (pang-enroll, pang-sustento, pang-tulong, pambayad)…

i think i’m finally finding the balance i’ve lost…

“you make cardboard look cute”

a parody of 7 Things na kaka-post ko lang ngayong araw na ‘to. napa-“awwww…” lang ako sa linyang “you make cardboard look cute”

song of hope and wishful thinking and is actually delusional. baliw lang gagawa nito at magpapantasya sa isang life-size cardboard picture…

hmmm… pwede ko kaya siyang pagawan ng ganito? blow-up dolls have a bad rep eh. LOL…

sorry na lang, baliw din ako ngayon. hahaha… nagpapabata. ๐Ÿ˜€

7 things (i hate about you)

7 Things
Miley Cyrus

Sha, sha, sha

I probably shouldn’t say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we shared
It was awesome but we lost it
It’s not possible for me not to care

And now we’re standing in the rain
But nothings ever gonna change
Until you hear, my dear

The 7 things I hate about you
The 7 things I hate about you, oh you

You’re vain
Your games
You’re insecure
You love me you like her
You made me laugh, you made me cry
I don’t know which side to buy

Your friends they’re jerks when you act like them
Just know it hurts
I want to be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

It’s awkward and silent as I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now is your sincere apology
When you mean it I’ll believe it
If you text it I’ll delete it
Let’s be clear
Oh I’m not coming back
Your taking seven steps here

The 7 things I hate about you
You’re vain
Your games
You’re insecure
You love me you like her
You made me laugh, you made me cry
I don’t know which side to buy

Your friends they’re jerks when you act like them
Just know it hurts
I want to be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

Compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention the 7 that I like

The 7 things I like about you
Your hair
Your eyes
Your old Levi’s
When we kiss I’m hypnotized

You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that’s both I’ll have to buy
Your hands in mine when we’re intertwined
Everything’s alright

I want to be with the one I know

And the 7th thing I like the most that you do
You make me love you
You do, oh
Oohhhh oooooooooohhh…

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song post ulit…

because love is a paradox…

“snap your fingers i’ll come running, leave again when you’re bored with me”

“Nevermind Me”
Maria Mena

What is the game we’re playing?
should I stick around for more?
Snap your fingers I’ll coming running
Leave again when you’re bored
with me
I’ll make it easy

Nevermind me, nevermind me
I’ll just cast shadows on your walls
Nevermind me, nevermind me
My God I feel so small
Nevermind me, nevermind me
I’ll just cast shadows on your walls
Nevermind me, nevermind me
I’ll just let myself out.

This facade that I’m stuck with
has got me wondering
Just tell me how you want me
and I’ll be naked stumbling
just to get a reaction, any signs of love

Nevermind me, nevermind me
I’ll just cast shadows on your walls
Nevermind me, nevermind me
My God I feel so small
Nevermind me, nevermind me
I’ll just cast shadows on your walls
Nevermind me, nevermind me
I’ll just let myself out.

Bottle up your smile
Pour it in a cup
I’ll be on my way
once I’ve sobered up

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hay, sadyang ganyan ang pag-ibig, hindi ba?

ahahay!!! *tambling*

Ang Punoโ€™t Dulo ng Pag-ibig

Nakakatawa talaga ang love. Isa siyang napakalaking oxymoron. Lahat ng pwede mong masabi sa kanya, baliktarin mo at totoo pa rin.

Ang labo diba? Pero ang linaw.

Masaya magmahal. Malungkot magmahal. Di mo naiintindihan pero naiintindihan mo. Walang rason. Maraming rason. Di mo na kaya, pero kaya mo pa rin. Masakit magmahal. Pero okey lang. Leche, ano ba talaga?! May kaibigan ako, sabi niya dati โ€œLove is only for stupid people.โ€ Nakakatawa kasi laude ang standing niya, pero dumating ang panahon, na-in-love din ang hunghang. At ayun, tanga na siya ngayon. Lahat kasi ng nahahawakan ng love nagiging oxymoron din. O kaya paminsan, nagiging moron lang.

Hindi lang kasi basta baliktaran ang pag-ibig. Lahat ng bagay nababaligtad din niya. Lahat ng malalakas na tao, humihina. Ang mayayabang, nagpapakumbaba. Ang mga walang pakialam, nagiging Mother Teresa. Ang mga henyo, nauubusan ng sagot. Ang malulungkot, sumasaya. Ang matitigas, lumalambot. (At tumitigas din ang mga bagay na madalas namaโ€™y malambot.) Nakakatawa talaga. Lalo na kapag dumadating siya sa mga taong ayaw na talaga magmahal. Napansin ko nga eh. Parang kung gusto mo lang ma-in-love ulit, sabihin mo lang ang magic words na โ€œAyoko na ma-inlove!โ€ biglang WACHA! Ayan na siya. Nang-aasar. Magpapaasar ka naman.

Di ba nakakatawa rin na pagdating sa problema ng ibang tao, ang galing galing mo? Pero โ€˜pag problema mo na yung pinag-uusapan parang nawawalan ng saysay lahat ng ipinayo mo dun sa namomroblemang tao? Naiisip mong wala namang mali dun sa mga sinabi mo. Pero bakit parang wala ring tama? Bali-baliktad din ang nasasabi ng mga taong tinamaan ng madugong pana ng pag-ibig. โ€œNgayon ko lang nalaman ganito pala. Sabi ko na eh!โ€ โ€œAng sarap mabuhay. Pwede na โ€˜ko mamatay. Now na!โ€

At hindi lang โ€˜yon. Ang sarap din pagtawanan ng mga taong alam naman nilang masasaktan lang sila eh magpapatihulog pa rin sa bangin ng pag-ibig. Tapos โ€˜pag luray-luray na yung puso nila, siyempre hindi sila yung may kasalanan. Siya! โ€œBakit niya โ€˜ko sinaktan?โ€ May kasama pang pagsuntok sa pader yon at pagbabagsak ng pinto. Hayop talaga. Mauubos ang buong magdamag ko kakasabi ng mga bagay na nakakatawa โ€˜pag pag-ibig na ang pinag-usapan. Ang daming beses ko na kasi siya nakasalubong kaya masasabi ko nang eksperto na โ€˜ko. Pero wala pa rin akong alam. Pero ang pinakanakakatawa sa lahat ay ang katotohanang kapag gusto magpatawa ng pag-ibig, ipusta na mo na lahat ng ari-arian mo dahil siguradong ikaw ang punchline.

Nakakatawa no?

Nakakaiyak.

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mula dito. thanks liyad…

sing me a song but sing it to me right

why is it easier for people to let out emotions through songs? but it’s funny, too, that when you thought you said what you wanted to say in the song you sang/picked/composed/borrowed, s**t happens. (it’s not soot)

this post is post-LQ or post-discussion, actually so there are no bad feelings involved anymore. just thoughts. (A, post- na ha? meaning tapos na.)

yes, it’s easy to misunderstand things that are abstract at times, especially when one is influenced by one’s emotions. or gut-feel. or intuition perhaps? but sometimes, it pays not to dwell in the thoughts that could only give us sorrow and pain but stay in the mindset where everything is happy and cheery.

of course, this is at the risk of being disillusioned that everything is “honky-donkey” and a-OK. then, i guess, confrontation is the best key but in such a manner where you will not expose yourself too much of your perceptions of the thing that is seen/heard. that way, you would have not hurt the one who may have had good intentions regarding the post but was let-down because of such a misunderstanding. nevertheless, it must be taken as constructively as possible by the poster that this has may cause troubles and must be careful, next time, in posting such things.

note to self: include an explanatory line/paragraph with every song posted.

what will i be like when i’m a dad-to-be?

am i ready for motherhood? errr… fatherhood rather? ๐Ÿ˜€ haha…

parents-to-be
parents-to-be

it’s been a while since the thought last crossed my mind. i had a different idea of it, then. it was more of despair and hopelessnes. i felt that at my age then, i might as well adopt a child when i grow a bit older and can afford to take care of one once i get a job. it looked like i wouldn’t be able to procreate as there have been no successful attempts at a relationship so far (then).

but things changed and, i guess, i was hung with the idea of the relationship and not fatherhood anymore that i forgot about it for the longest time. until now.

mama liz, our officemate, is 7 months pregnant and is due in 10 weeks. we’ve been calling her “mama” even before she got married and had the baby, though. ๐Ÿ™‚ she and i would have afternoon walks when work starts to get toxic, usually just to let our eyes wander in unfamiliar greens and sunshine. ๐Ÿ˜€ and now that she’s eating for two persons, she would make ‘lambing’ to buy food. it would be me or niรฑo or both of us who would fall prey to her lambing of sending us off to the caf for lugaw, turon, or have halo-halo delivered to the office. and when she would, i’d never complain. whenever i see her and her big tummy, i’d love to hold it, and would hope to feel Baby Girl (secret muna daw) Cruz moving inside her tummy. ๐Ÿ™‚

and now it makes me wonder how would i be as a husband? would i be as excited? will i spoil my wife? how would i spoil her? how can i spoil her even more? will she have mood swings and insecurities while being pregnant? how would i react to her mood and insecurities? a lot of questions, again, that i may not be able to answer just yet. scared and excited and determined at the same time.

this whole idea just popped up in my head because mama liz asked me this morning if i knew any blogs on motherhood or an expecting mom or a new mom. i, unfortunately, did not. and then another idea just popped right in and made a mental note to myself: that if i were a soon-to-be dad, i would like to blog about it. i think it’s mostly the women who get to blog about their child-bearing because they can feel everything changing. men only ‘see’ things changing… i wonder how that would feel like… hmmm…

i’ll keep you posted when it happens. ๐Ÿ˜‰