i now get bored easily. actually more than getting bored, i’m losing the ability to concentrate. there’s always that little thing on the side or in my periphery that begs that i attend to it rather than stay on course. why is that?
i did attribute it to being smart once. being distracted means you have so many interests that you want to grasp everything or take a nibble at everything that you hear or see. you acquire a little knowledge each time but don’t master anything. and it was quite fun at the time when i was still energetic and carefree. now, things are becoming different.
i find myself wanting to lay back and still remain carefree… only thing is i feel incompetent and can’t rely on my own knowledge of the things that i thought i knew! i’m no expert in the things that i once pursued, i was just a passer-by after all.
so i tried to remedy it by reading more. which brings me back to my first paragraph: i get easily distracted. and when i get distracted, i often forget about the thing that i was wanting to do/read.
i started reading Grit by Angela Duckworth, a recommendation from my bestfriend since High School. i thought i could read a whole lot of it but ended up skipping pages and just watching the TED video. and i had to laugh as she discussed how grit was a defining component of success… and here i was, foiled at reading a book and ending up gritless watching the 6-minute video. haha!
and i had to sigh a little. i am where i am right now because i have no grit. i lack motivation. fortunately, in her video too, she says that it isn’t just talent that gets us where we are. that means where i am right now is not perpetual or a result of my limited talents. it just means i need to acquire *some* grit to move up a level from *NO grit* at all.
and so i write it down here in this blog that this is step one. i may fail but i will always try again. and by that, i have acquired some grit.