this is the thing i hate the most: emotional (over)eating. last week, it was probably just stress. now, partly stress, and partly anxiety. and i don’t want to say it yet because i might misuse the term. but i am thinking it: depression.
madaling sabihin na ‘just get over it.’ atsaka ‘it’s just a phase.’ binobola ko din sarili ko minsan ng ganyan. kaya ang nangyayari, i redirect my thoughts into escaping this feeling. among the things i turn to for happiness is food.
spiritually, maybe i am drained. aside from not going to mass for the past 2 months, i haven’t gone to confession for over a year now. youtube preaching and reading inspirational messages online don’t suffice. even personal prayer and reflection feels empty. ganito din kaya si Mother Teresa noon?
mentally/intellectually, i am lost, too. and i’m feeling the lack of guidance. i need mentoring. i need a mentor. parang feeling ko, spoiled man ang dating, kailangan ko ng babysitter sa ngayon. kasi wala akong alam.
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