what is stress with a capital S?

“not enough vitamins.”

yan na yata ang motto ko ngayon. i’ve felt tired all week long. my officemates feel it to and we attribute it to all the new things that started this monday.

nagkaroon ng ‘rigodon’ when we started hiring people, moved some around, and had visitors come in last monday. and i have a new person to work with. iniisip namin nga ngayon na this is just the adjustment period… been having conversations in my head and trying to think of things to do next. nakakapagod pala pag naka-“on” lagi ang lahat ng nasa utak mo.

and then there’s the renovation for the house. i’m sort of stressed kasi inabutan na ng tag-ulan. hindi naman makapagpa-trabaho pero kailangan na kailangan nang magpa-ayos ng bahay. and even thinking about how to move things is just putting a lot of strain in the far corners of my brain.

kaya gaya kahapon, napa-stress-eating-galore kami. ordered McDo. well, di naman talaga stress-eating. basta, naghanap lang ng medyo comfort food. convenience of food delivery seemed to be the answer. di na nga din namin naisip kung ano talaga gusto naming kainin. “kahit ano, basta delivery.”

ano ba psychology ng ganoon? reward for hard work? having control over someone/something? Schadenfreude? (“look at me! i’m rich and i can afford to have food delivered, not like you manong delivery guy na malamang ay minimum wage.”) UGH! i feel terrible again.

feels like nothing right is happening.

it’s not true though. but it feels really convincing.

it’s 8 o’clock in the evening

ang masayang schedule sana ay pauwi na dapat sana ako ng ganitong oras. pero hindi eh. nandito pa ako at magtatagal pa ako sa opisina ng mga 2 o 3 oras pa.

nakakapagod ang walang ginagawa.

di yata ako maka-keep-up sa mga pangyayari. not enough vitamins ‘ika nga ng isang commercial sa TV. sign of aging? or sign of deterioration? anak ng… bata pa ako. ayoko pa ng ganito.

although, last year ko na na mapapasama ako sa ‘calendar club’. next year, graduate nako to ‘bingo club’. yes, i just turned 31. (yung mga magpapa-libre, saka na pag nakalipat na ako sa ibang trabaho na mas mataas ang sahod! or maka-sideline diyan sa QC Circle minsan. haha!) and like most days, it didn’t feel different. ganun talaga pag tumatanda yata. wala ng magandang nangyayari sa buhay. lahat ng magagandang pangyayari, naganap na noong kabataan mo… “noong panahon namin,” ang lagi mong sambit. Magpatuloy sa pagbasa

what you should take home from watching the video starts at 4:17.

 

…both men were married for over 60 years. both men had big families. these men gave — to all those around them. and that was the biggest difference with what i was doing and what they did. i was concerned with having something. they were concerned with giving something…

Isla Vista needs a lot of improvement

Since i don’t want to make another write-up, i thought of just copying my review on TripAdvisor (again). XD I posted my pictures there too. 😀

isla vista

We traveled as a big group: 4 families. we booked the Courtyard which houses 4 rooms (each with T&B) plus a common living/dining area and kitchen. Sound great right? Well, not exactly.

Courtyard looks and feels dated. The kitchen tiles confirms it. There isn’t even a proper metal sink. Just a tiled hole on a concrete countertop slab. The furniture are structurally sound but it’s pretty obvious that it’s just a mash-up of anything and everything available to the resort and stuck inside it. Even the TV didn’t have enough cable channels to entertain us. The cables were everywhere too! And those jallousie windows? Forget about trying to close them. It ain’t gonna work. There’s a garden on the side fronting the beach where you can grill food. The garden was left to just keep growing and it was just really untidy.

We got Room #1 and the displeasure continues. It was a pretty dimly lit room and it was not the romantic kind. Paint peeling from water-logged walls. Seems like the renovation/improvement was done hastily or on a budget. Really thin coats of yellow paint on doors. Even saw old termite tubes on the walls. The T&B were below average.

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