simple lang naman hiling ko. papanalunin mo naman ako sa lotto kahit minsan lang… kasi pag nanalo ako sa lotto, matutuwa lahat ng tao sa paligid ko. andami ding problema ko ang masusolusyonan.
problema ko ang pag-travel. whenever i see my friends’ pics on facebook, multiply (friendster? what’s that?), ang ganda ng mga napupuntahan nila. tapos ang gaganda pa ng photos nila… and speaking of photos
problema ko ang magagandang photos. gusto ko ng magandang camera. OK fine, casual pornographer photographer naman ako pero minsan, pag bilog ang buwan at sinasapian ako ng espiritu, nagpapaka-seryoso ako sa photography ko and i feel limited by what my point-and-shoot can do. hay…
i have that big question right now. i really need a lot of reading to do. i KNOW that i have to read and learn a lot. every cell in my brain is screaming at me: FEED ME INFORMATION!!! but when i do, they start to hang… or they eat the information with small, itsy bitsy, tiny, little toy spoons meant for feeding… i don’t know… atoms? so it takes so long for me to digest all this information. i have to read a page of text 3 or 4 times! (ok, i think i should give myself a break. it’s got equations on it. but i wasn’t this slow before! grrr…)
i used to interpret these things easily. maybe i’ve just been too dormant, had too long a vacation doing nothing but playing plants vs. zombies… *gasp!* or maybe… the Zombies ate my brains! *Nooooooo!!!*
depression? i think i’ve had enough emo thoughts. too much on my mind? yeah… maybe i need to clear up some space. but don’t we use just about 10% of our brain? i guess there’s really more room up there so i shouldn’t bother cleaning it up. organize… i should organize. even my thoughts while writing this entry are flying. incoherent. just snippets of whatever passes by my brain… or whatever section that is of the brain. cerebrum? cerebelum? whatever.
do i have to learn more physics? can’t i learn that from someone else in a lecture? my comprehension of these ideas isn’t exactly like that of Richard Feynman’s but i have to understand these things… and i have to know more. i have to know a lot more than what i currently know. it’s depressing to know how little you actually know.
yeah. looks like i’m just back to being plain emo.
i don’t know but it seems that the universe seems to love me too much. i’ve been attracting certain kinds of people and i don’t know exactly why.
because in the wee hours of the morning, i just got robbed while i was sleeping!!! *gasp*
the burglar opened the door by coming in through the Jalousie window. he took a few shirts and my cute little electric fan. but that’s all. my wallet was intact. no money taken from me. and both of my phones were there… but most important was i’m still here, typing, writing the event on my blog — I’M ALIVE!!!
i think i am to blame, partly, for letting my defenses down. i even saw the potential of how to break into my own room if ever i forgot or lost my keys by doing exactly what the burglar did and what did i do about it? nothing. absolutely nothing. laking pagsisisi… this even reminds me of that book i’ve seen but never cared to read. “Trust in God. But Lock Your Car”
and so, i’m a bit paranoid that he’ll be back. so i’m taking steps to prevent another burglary. pft… really, experience is such a good teacher. but can’t it just teach you without much distress and money spewing from your pocket? 🙂 heehee… (i’m actually thinking if he came back for more as i type this in the office. grrrrr… paranoid talaga!!!)
on a more positive note, this would mean that i will be having slight wardrobe changes. replacing t-shirts with maybe polo shirts? *sigh* i will miss those shirts. and i’m glad i’m safe. i’m OK. i’m without a bruise on my body. and finally, a little perspective on spending and future-thinking about getting a house of my own — security should be a priority! before i get that LCD TV, i should be thinking how i can protect them… either from thieves, the weather, or fire. tsk, tsk…