me, the designer

i have always thought of myself as an artistic person. hindi yung maarte ha? yung ma-‘art’. parang that time when i questioned my sexual preference. JOKE! :P

i had that doubt, though. really. bading ba ako? i mean i’m not into basketball and sports.

i liked gardening. i hated heavy metal and rock. i wasn’t even into alternative music in high school when everyone was liking Parokya ni Edgar and Eraserheads. I stuck to my “Mantovani” as my mom would call it.

I believed I had some aesthetic sensibilities in clothing… for others. i’d just wear what my dad would usually give me. :P

Magpatuloy sa pagbasa

podcasts… podcasts everywhere!!!

so lumalabas ang pagka-obsessive ko sa mga bagay-bagay ngayon. as you know, kaka-simula ko lang mag-podcast last post ko. and i’ve been watching youtube video after youtube video on podcasting. and now i’ve got this head full of topics and ideas on podcasts na din! how do i know this?

yesterday, we were discussing in a small group a thing or two about ethics. and i was already thinking to myself, “i should get this recorded or maybe schedule something like this to post on my soundcloud!”

then after visiting an officemate’s corner, we started to talk about traveling. in my head i was already listening to the intro of the podcast and how a nice tropical bed/background music would be so appropriate and just set the mood.

then i drove to work today and began to talk to myself as if i were a commentator on the traffic channel or something.

WOW. i AM obsessed.

but who wouldn’t be? it’s such a great medium to reach other people. only problem is i have to conceptualize it better. format it properly. and do it regularly. and maybe be brave enough to publish it on iTunes! woooooh! taas ng pangarap mehn! :D

malay naten diba?

disturbed by bruce jenner’s logic.

i don’t think bruce jenner is a woman. i will never think he is a woman. his DNA says he’s a man.

no, i’m not being ‘transphobic’. i’m just calling a spade a spade.

he may look pretty in lingerie and big flowy hair but it will never change the fact that he is a man.

i think Matt Walsh was the one who wrote something to the effect of, “if i go to a psychologist and tell him ‘i feel like i’m a dog trapped in a man’s body,’ he’d definitely say i have a condition. but if i tell him ‘i feel like i’m a woman trapped in a man’s body’ and we consider this ‘normal’?”

which i can definitely understand.

some people might argue, “a dog is an animal! of course that’s crazy!” but what separates us from dogs scientifically speaking? is it not our DNA that tells us if we humans and not chimpanzees? that a man’s DNA is different from a woman’s? XY is not XX. XX is not XY. but XX feeling like XY is fine? where’s our science?

another argument might be ‘identity’. and it will prove troublesome. how long can an ‘identity’ last? can you fault someone who identifies as a woman in short bursts of time — (i.e. enough time to do bad things in the other gender’s bathroom) and claim innocence because ‘at the time, i identified myself as a woman’?

it’s not about bruce jenner really. it’s about the logic. i can’t see any of it.

kakaibang init

nope. it’s not what you think. hindi ito init ng katawan. well, in a sense, oo. init ng katawan. ng ulo. ng balat. lahat na!

ANG INEEEEEEET!!!

tapos yung uulan pa na saglit na saglit lang… lahat ng init ng lupa ay sisingaw ulit sa hangin. ang lagkit lagkit lagkit lagkit ng pakiramdam ko pagkatapos ng ulan.

kaya mas maganda huwag na lang umulan kung konti lang. dapat kapag umulan ay medyo tuloy-tuloy ng mga 1 o 2 oras para lumamig ng konti ang pakiramdam. libreng car wash pa. haha!

how do you deal with this temperature? sa maynila, mahirap. sa probinsya, mapuno pa at mahangin. mall na lang ba lagi ang kasagutan sa lahat ng problema naten? ahahay…

hey big spender

bakit ba kung kailan wala kang pera saka ka naman kating-kati gumastos?

ever had that feeling?

parang pagdi-diyeta lang. pigil na pigil kang kumain ng madami pero di mo kinakaya. kaya pagdating ng gabi, lalamon ka ng lalamon.

it takes a whole lot of discipline, i know. and that’s something that i don’t have. or i think i don’t… baka lang natatago sa loob. di ko alam. hay…

in my mind, i justify these purchases are necessities. or rewards for a hard day’s work. or just to own stuff. the pleasure of owning stuff that you shouldn’t be able to buy because you can’t afford them at the moment. i just couldn’t wait. i don’t have the discipline. i don’t have the patience. ewan ko ba.